My Dad, My Life !

Growing up with a family that never got along was pretty tough and wasnt easy on my part. The hardest part I ever had to overcome was when I was very young and my parents got a divorce.  I was too young to actually understand what it really meant, but when I started to grow up a little and understand everything, I took it pretty hard.  I wasn’t that close with my dad, but I don’t know what kid would be fine with their parents splitting up.  Once everything has happened, it took forever to get over the fact that I don’t live in a big happy family anymore.  When I turned 16, my dad has remarried and happier than he ever was.  The worst part of it all is that I don’t even see him anymore.  I will see him probably three times a month if I’m lucky.  Moving into college was also tough because I know my time with my dad is limited.  A week already went by living the college life and the last time I saw my dad was 2 weeks before I left for college.  I feel broken and I feel like there’s a hole in my heart.  How I am taking in all of this is that it’s time to grow up and get over the fact that the divorce happened over 15 years ago.  College made me realize that life is way too short to worry about the small things.  It feels like just yesterday I was starting my freshmen year of high school.  College is going to go by very fast and sooner than we know it, we will be walking that stage getting our degrees.  I need to stop thinking about the past and move forward to the future.  I need to focus on what’s right in front of me and keep everything else in the past.